I was abused as a child by pedophiles when I was 8 and 9 years old. My parents blamed ME for the outcome, although they never talked to me about it. The embarrassment they had at the hands of medical people caused them to blame me all of my childhood and changed how they treated me in all aspects of my life. Abuse effects are life-long and life-changing. Writing about it helps. I'm always glad to see your stories and how you are coping.